What we dont know

The government has been so far ahead of the public that its scary. It almost makes me believe that the conspirency therious...

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A Letter To Myself and The Education World!

Only you can make something out of yourself.  My name is Chris Gray. I'm from Tuscaloosa Alabama. I just moved to Huntsville recently for more opportunities and a chance to make a realistic change in a positive manner for myself.  I have seen and done it all in life; but the only thing I have not done is complete my education. Its one thing that I wish I would have done at a younger age. I took to the workforce and put school on the back burner for what I thought was the better way of getting to my goal. Little did I know that jobs will come and go and a person with a degree is considered to be a little more important to a company that a worker with just a high school diploma. Life teaches us lessons that we hold onto til the end of of our days. The lesson I hold onto now is get a degree. It does something for a person when they walk across that stage shake hands with the dean and feel that satisfaction of knowing they completed something from beginning to end with no help, no parents  nor teacher hoovering over their shoulder or any outside force pushing you to complete this task except yourself. I want that feeling. I see the pride friends of mine have when when asked what have they accomplished and they reply with "I have a degree in this..." I look at my accomplishments and they dont compare to that one sentence. Even though I have saved 2 lives, did community service with the boy's and girl's club(100hrs) and have been awarded outstanding salesman 2 years straight at both my jobs. It still has no comparison to me. Added that I still have young teens who call me to this day and ask for my opinion on in certain situations and ex managers asking if I want to come back and re-join their teams. I still want something that takes more mental and inner strength to complete under my belt. We are our own worst critics I know, but that's something I feel I will not be happy if I didn't obtain. I want to accomplish some goals.A degree and getting my invention patented are two things I feel that If I didn't do I could not have a happy life, no matter how big my account grew or how may cars I have parked outside. I want to be challenged mentally and grow on a more soulful level. I don't think material goods or worldly possesions can give you happiness. I think it is up to a person to make themselves happy. No matter who you are or what you have; a person need goals, struggle and let down in order to become a stronger and self aware individual. Things are not always black and white nor  handed to us. The things we want out of life must be obtained by yourself. No one should give, hand or set-up our lives. In order for a person to be a functioning member of society in a positive manner he/she must make themselves into the person they want to be. Dream big, aim high, play to win, and except reality for what it is. Take chances but think first. Love life and love yourself. This is my outlook and life and the things i want to do. I just wanna be happy with the reflection in the mirror.

I'm off on a adventure called life.this journey is filled with highs and lows.smiles and frowns. But some way i will find my way through this dark valley and feel the refreshing rays from the sun that gives this dying earth another chance every 12 hours.dive in my head and my life to to see what makes me.M3!
 I don't know where life is going to take me. But I do know where I'm working toward. The things I have seen in life are crazy, they gave me an outlook that's clear and deeply rooted in motivation...sometimes I wander if they blind me to the fact that life isn't really what u want it to be but more of what its going to be! I have such big dreams and things that I want to accomplish that's they keep me up at night tossing and turning over rather of not GOD will allow my light to shine as bright as the sun or slowly burn out like so many other men and women who lost their inner glow due to the coldness of everyday life and survival while seeing others through the media or right next door flourish and have what u think the perfect or good life. Truth is our future is determined by our everyday actions...with a margin of error for life expectancies.(which varies in size)
 All in all I'm looking for is success and happiness...coming from a life of misplacement and self doubt but growing into a confident solar system. I am Chris Gray...I refuse to be another Joe or a person who didn't at least TRY to reach my dream!

My Reply To A Statement...U Figure Out The Topic

well that is understandable...the qualities u just named are not much nor are they impossible to find...but like life the simplest things always seem so complex to get. I mean I would give u a short list of what i want out of a woman...but from what I have seen in this world is...what u ask for or want isn't always what u get or need...my thoughts on relationships and dating is this...look at a person on the inside, compare that to their everyday ways and the way you two interact...pay attention to the things they say they want..and observe them to see if they actually make even the smallest step toward reaching them...life is so crazy and unscripted that I cant say what I'm looking for or even if I'm looking for anything at all. Right now, all I want is pretty simple yet so hard to obtain...i wanna be happy...i want another full time job, get my financial aid out of default to finish school and get my invention off the ground...women, friends and family are the things that entertain and motivate me to obtain these goals...but life and love..two things we will never be able to control!

Life..

Life Is something serious. It is both beautiful and your worst nightmare at the same time. I view life as a movie with real consequince and acomplishments. If you make the right choice at the rrigh ttimes your life will move at an easier pace and a controlable speed; but like most people in this world we often hit speed pumps and road blocks in the form of hard times and struggle. But like any journey you sometime get away with speeding and that cop that could have ruined your life deside to give you a break. Meaning sometime things just goes in your favor at the most unexpected times and places.
 When  it all boils down to it, most of our hardships and set-backs usally resort from a descision we made days, months, or years earlier.But...things happen for a reason; how we respond to them and adjust to the situation determines the outcome.
 Im at that serious point in my life where my eyes are finally opening...but it seems like they opened at the right time and I see things in a diffrent view. Its a far destinstion, its like being on some traintrack and looking at far as the eye can see, but seeing nothing but destination. You know its there, you can feel it...but is so far you cant even see it...just thoughts, this my first one but its the beginning of a loving relationship...
                                                   C.Gray